Showing posts with label Giants. Show all posts
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Tuesday, December 17, 2013

August 15- San Francisco Giants


This post pertains to the specific date posted above. Enjoy.





My parents had separated for only a few months when my other decided to take my brothers Matt and Adam and myself to Livermore, California to visit our grandmother for a weekend in August in 1989. We had left on Friday the 11th, but we returned to our home in Bakersfield on Wednesday the 16th after missing a few too many days of school. It wasn’t like my mom to have us miss class, but I think she needed some extra time to spend with our grandmother to really grasp everything that had come to her and my father splitting up. From what I can recall the eventual divorce hit my oldest brother Matt the hardest as he was about to turn 11 in November, and at that age the sense of “I did something to cause this” was starting to settle into his mind. My brother Adam, who would be turning 10 the same month, took a protector role as I was too young to really understand what was going on. As the years pressed on these roles shifted slightly; Matt hated my mother for almost two decades as he eventually blamed her for their split, and Adam flip-flopped a bit on things as he became way more rebellious and sometimes took his frustration out on me. I merely sat back and observed, occasionally taking the role of the leader as I became way more methodical about the situation as I got older. As I loom back on the way things have panned out, it almost feels like a dream. No child should ever be put in that situation. I fully understand that marriage isn’t a for sure thing, even in a Mormon household that I grew up in. Everyone will be changed in some way, but it’s how we react to that adversity is what truly defines our character. I did my best to rise above the pain and frustration, as did my brothers, mother and father, but that’s not to say we didn’t slip from time to time. Today we’re all a bit happier. My mother and father don’t speak to one another, but my brothers and I don’t hold the grudges against either of them, nor do we bicker and fight like we used to anymore. I’m not entirely sure how my brothers got over it, but for me, I was always sought sports for my comfort.


1989 was an especially weird year, and the divorce made things especially odd when the World Series came around that October. Adam and my father had both grown up huge San Francisco Giants fans while Matt and I favored the Oakland Athletics. Obviously we all know how that series panned out. Matt and I were more than jubilant while Adam and my dad had the bitter taste of defeat in their mouth. My mother was indifferent due to her Boston Red Sox loyalty, but from what I recall, it was the last time I remember us all being collectively involved and happy in the wake of the madness that would slowly tear us all apart for the majority of 20 years.

There’s a reason I brought all of this to the table and most of it has to do with that weekend in August. While I remember small bits and pieces of my brothers and me running around the neighborhood of my grandmother’s house on Drake Way, I only partially remember my mother crying and her mother trying to console as I looked on in confusion. As the days passed I did my best to entertain myself by watching movies and baseball to kind of tune everything out since no one was making an effort to fill me in on everything that was happening. That weekend the Athletics had taken two out of three from the California Angels and beat the Cleveland Indians on Tuesday by the final score of 5-2. As for the Giants, they had lost two of three from their longtime rival the Los Angeles Dodgers and had begun a three game series on Tuesday in Montreal against the Expos. The Athletics game wasn’t on, but the Giants game was being broadcast on KTVU, so my brothers and I ended up watching it that evening. There’s a reason why I remember all these little bits and details even though most adults shouldn’t more than 24 years later. This was the night that I, and every Giants and Expos fan who happened to be watching that game, saw Dave Dravecky pitch for the last time.


8/15/89: It would be a few years before I fully understood what I was watching. I had heard the name Dravecky a few times in the three years that I had been following baseball, but it didn’t really stick until he took the mound against the Expos. He had started the game for the Giants, only his second appearance/start of the season after he underwent surgery in October of 1988, in which doctors removed half of the deltoid muscle in his pitching arm and froze the humerus bone in an effort to eliminate all of the cancerous cells that had been spreading throughout his left arm; his pitching arm. He had returned to the mound after an extensive rehab run in the minors on August 10th against the Cincinnati Reds, a game in which he would thrown eight innings while only allowing three earned runs on four hits and a walk on the road to the win. 


Against the Expos Dravecky had started out on fire, throwing a no-hitter through three innings before giving up a single to Andres Galarraga with one out in the top of the fourth. Dravecky went on to retire the next two batters. The Giants tacked on a run in the top of the fifth inning to give them a 1-0 lead. Dravecky had a some trouble in the bottom half of the inning, but managed to get through it after allowing back-to-back singles by Tim Wallach and Mike Fitzgerald before retiring the next three batters. Dravecky recalled a tingling sensation in his arm throughout the inning, but persevered. In the top of the sixth Will Clark led off with a single before Matt Williams cranked a two-run blast off of Bryn Smith to give the Giants a 3-0 lead going into the bottom of the inning. With a lead in tact and the minimum amount of innings to get a decision in the books, Dravecky took to the mound to face second baseman Damaso Garcia. Dravecky’s first pitch was a ball, but his second pitch was right down Garcia’s wheelhouse as he blasted it to deep left field (3-1 Giants). The next batter was Galarraga. Dravecky started off a little shaky as his arm was started to bother him more intently. He got Galarraga up to a 2-2 count but eventually beaned him on the sixth pitch. A few Expos fans booed, but it’s pretty obvious that Dravecky didn’t mean to retaliate over the home run, especially after getting the next batter to a 2-2 count. With Galarraga on first base, up to the plate came the ever-dangerous Tim Raines who had gone 0-1 with a walk in his previous two plate appearance. After a brief cool down Dravecky got into his wind-up and fired a shot that went high and to the left into the net behind home plate. Before anyone could grasp what had happened, Dravecky dropped to the ground in writhing pain. The shoulder on his pitching arm, in the same area where the surgeons had removed the cancerous tumors, had snapped. It’s not often that one sees a grown man in such pain on live TV, but the gravity of the situation never leaves your mind. There are a few videos on the web that show what happened, but I’m not in favor of posting it. Fictional violence in film is one thing, but showing something horrific happen to another human being is where I draw the line. The news broke later that night of what had actually happened, but I didn’t find out until the next day. After a few more surgeries and staph infection broke out in Dravecky’s arm, he made the decision to have it amputated.

I’ve brought this up in a few of my other blog posts, in that I really didn’t come into my writing skills until I was 13-years-old. The moment it all became apparent was in Mr. Fowler’s American History class at Fruitvale Jr. High School in Bakersfield when we were given a major presentation assignment under the topic of “Triumph and Tragedy” or “Tragedy and Triumph.” There really was no wrong way of doing it just as long as the essence of perseverance was conveyed through our report. I chose Dravecky’s story through his book Comeback. One of the other reference items I had to aid me in my report was one of my favorite videos that I miraculously came across on Ebay back in 2008 on VHS called “Champions by the Bay,” an essential collectors piece for any Giants or Athletics fan. Due to the fact that the internet was really just getting dropped on the world at the time, all of my research came from these two resources and a scatter of magazine and newspaper clippings that I could come across. At the time, I didn’t know a whole lot about Dravecky other than his years with the Giants, what I later came to realize is that he was way more of a polarizing in baseball than most remember.

Born in Youngstown, Ohio Dravecky attended his hometown college, Youngstown State, where he was drafted by the Pittsburgh Pirates in the 21st round of the 1978 amateur draft. He spent his first three years in the minors with the Class-A Charleston Pirates (1978) before getting promoted to the AA Buffalo Bisons, where he spent two seasons (1979-1980) going 6-7 in his first year and 13-7 with a 3.35 ERA in his second. When 1981 came around he was traded to the San Diego Padres where he went 15-5 with a 2.67 ERA and 141 strikeouts with the AA Amarillo Gold Sox. It was in this season that he became a devout Christian. 1982 with the AAA Hawaii Islanders started off just as prosperous, 4-1 with a 2.48 ERA and 26 strikeouts in 16 appearances (15 in relief), when he was called up to the Majors and made his debut on June 15th of that year. From then until the middle of 1987 Dravecky made 199 appearances (119 starts) and finished with a 53-50 record, a 3.12 ERA, 456 strikeouts, one All-Star Game appearance in 1982 and one appearance in the World Series in 1984 against the Detroit Tigers, which they lost in five games. Dravecky pitched 10 2/3 innings in the playoff that season and didn’t allow a single run while striking out 10 batters. 


In the middle of the 1987 season the Padres traded Dravecky along with Craig Lefferts and Kevin Mitchell to the Giants in exchange for Chris Brown, Keith Comstock (who will appear in a future post), Mark Davis and Mark Grant. If you know anything about 1980s baseball, you know that the Giants totally owned the Padres on this deal. For the rest of the 1987 season Dravecky went 7-5 in 18 starts with a 3.20 ERA and 78 strikeouts as well as an appearance in the National League Championship Series against the St. Louis Cardinals, which they lost in seven games. Dravecky made two starts and went 1-1 despite pitching 15 innings while only allowing one run seven hits and four walks while striking out 14 batters. Seriously, he was lights out, but the Giants couldn’t give him any run support after Cardinals’ right fielder Jose Oquendo lobbed a sacrifice fly in the second inning of Game Six.

In 1988 Dravecky started off the season well, but was shut down after his start on May 28th when the cancerous desmoid tumor was discovered. 


He had pitched in seven games, going 2-2 with a 3.16 ERA and 19 strikeouts. When he made his return at Candlestick Park on August 10th he was met by a standing ovation from the sold out crowd of 34,810 fans. 


As I mentioned above, he pitched beautifully. His comeback merited the Hutch Award at the end of the season which is given to the player who "best exemplifies the fighting spirit and competitive desire" of Fred Hutchinson, by persevering through adversity. The award was created in 1965 in honor of Hutchinson, the former MLB pitcher and manager, who died of lung cancer the previous year. When Dravecky’s pitching career ended on that unfortunate day on August 15th, one detail from that game ended up being an intriguing moment down the road. Garcia, the player who had hit the home run off of Dravecky in the top of the sixth inning, saw his playing career come to an end less than month later in September 12th. The home run he hit would turn out to be the last in his 11-year career. Even eerier, a year after he retired, Garcia started to have double vision and was diagnosed with a malignant brain tumor. In 1991, Garcia had the tumor removed, and was told that he only has six months to live. The effects of the tumor left him with limited speech and certain movement. He recovered enough to throw out the first pitch of a Toronto Blue Jays playoff game in 1992, the team he had been with for the majority of his career (1980-1986). His oldest son suffers from hemophilia which prompted Garcia to run a baseball camp for hemophiliac children in the Dominican Republic. As for Dravecky, he found himself at an unusual crossroad after the additional surgeries, the staph infection and the eventual amputation of June 18, 1991. After his recovery Dravecky looked at his life and analyzed his relationship with God and realized that baseball was merely a stepping stone to reach the next step. He began touring as a motivational speaker he wrote two books about his battles with cancer and his comeback attempt: Comeback, published in 1990 and written with Tim Stafford, and When You Can't Come Back, co-authored with wife Jan and Ken Gire and published in 1992. He has also written a Christian motivational book titled Called Up which was published in 2004.

I don’t speak much of religion in my posts unless it is pertinent to the topic at hand. As I mentioned above, and in a few other instances, I was raised Mormon. Most of what I have done in life may not reflect that of the typical Latter-Day Saint lifestyle (alcohol consumption, tattoos, smoking, etc.), but the one thing that has stayed within my life from those days is my faith in God. I’m a firm believer in the philosophy of “everything happens for a reason,” but that part that I differ on from most religions is that I don’t feel that God is necessarily controlling those moments. To me, God is merely watching over us, working more as a conscience when it comes to moments of right or wrong and taking the next step. It’s really more of a comfort, kind of like the way our parents are always by our sides, reminding us that they gave us the tools to succeed and now it’s up to us to choose the right path as they look on. Nothing about what I believe is meant to persuade anyone. You are all free to believe what you want and do what you want, but this is merely look into how I became the man I am today as I reflect upon the moments from my childhood that somehow became involved with the day that Dravecky took the mound for the last time. Much like Dravecky, an injury while I was playing baseball is inevitably what ended my possible opportunity to play professional baseball. Obviously mine wasn’t as horrendous, but the end result was the same: Baseball is merely a platform for us to see what our greater purpose is. For Dravecky, it’s sharing his story and sharing his testimony and relationship with God. For me, it’s sharing stories through my writing and baseball in the attempt to become a better person and help others along the way. While my drive isn’t a religiously charged as Dravecky’s, the mission is still the same.

Originally I was going to save this post until I could track down a Giants 1989 World Series cap since he was a part of the team that year, but I have something else planned for that. Instead, I chose this cap that the team used as their game cap from 1983 until the end of the 1993 season. Even though there were a lot of stories to tell during that time frame, nothing really embodied the good spirit of those teams quite like Dravecky in the two-and-a-half-years he was on the field. When I laid out my design plan for my mascot and logos tattoos I did it with the intention that every single piece had a greater story behind it. For the Giants, I got rather subtly creative.


Originally I was going to add the old Crazy Crab that everyone used to hate, and I may still add that down the road, but ultimately I chose Lou Seal. More specifically, I found a picture of Lou Seal from a kids MLB coloring book which featured a picture of him giving the thumbs up. Now, being an Athletics fan I of course had to put my tweak on it by giving it a thumbs down on top of the old school green underbrim on the cap; however, there is one aspect that I was very specific about that very few ever notice. If you look above you’ll notice that Lou Seal isn’t exactly all in frame. Yes, his legs are being boxed out by Chief Noc-a-Homa below, but the left arm was purposely covered up/removed as my tribute to Dravecky. Also, and this will blow your mind even more, if you look at the full tattoo below you’ll see that the two team mascots to his left (the Reds and Expos) are the last two teams he faced, and the last two teams he notched wins against as the Giants still won the game on August 15th as they preserved a 3-2 lead to end the game. 


I may not see eye-to-eye with Giants fans most of the time, but I do respect their history and quite a few of their players. Until the day comes when I am dispatched from this life, I am happy to have Dravecky always be a part of it.

Sunday, September 1, 2013

July 10- New York Giants



It was a week after my birthday this year when I came across this cap on the “shop” portion of MLB.com. I had considerably lucked out when trying to find the old 1912 Boston Red Sox on the Web site for 20% off, not to mention an additional 25% off for “closeout” caps that weekend. Not being the kind of guy who is satisfied with just one hat I decided to poke around team by team in hope of finding anything else cool. Needless to say, daddy hit the jackpot. I think when all was said and done I dropped about $300 on 14 caps. All of the closeout caps I tracked down consisted primarily of Turn Back the Clock and Stars & Stripes caps from the 2012 season, all caps I had been feverishly trying to track down since the end of October. And here they were in one easy to find place. The unfortunate reality that set in after my purchase was that I was quickly running out of the financial aid money I had to live on for my final term at the University of Oregon. Even though I needed to eat I, for some reason, found myself trying to fill the depression of being back in school with hat shopping. I haven’t even bothered to count how much I cleaned up between January and March, but I know it’s a lot. I especially know that I ended up skipping a few meals when I really shouldn’t have. But, there’s no sense in crying over spilt milk now. I have a plethora of new caps which means I have a hearty helping of stories to write along with them.

When I first laid eyes on this cap on that more-than-likely cold day in February (it’s Oregon) I couldn’t recall when the San Francisco Giants wore it. I knew that back on June 5, 2012 the Giants had worn the 1912 style which I wrote about on January 26th, but this style somehow eluded me throughout the season. It wasn’t until I started researching the hat tonight that all of my questions became answered and it made complete sense as to how I never saw it. 


The first problem that I was able to solve was the specific time period when the Giants wore this cap originally. When I bought it and when I finally found a proper Web site with photos from the July 5, 2012 game in which they were used all sources point to this being a 1924 cap. This part is actually true. The Giants only wore this specific cap and the uniform set they donned on July 5th for a speckle of games in 1924… and that’s it.

I end that last sentence so emphatically because I got hosed by a number of mislabeled photos and bad information from a few other Web sites which led me to believe that this cap was used for road games during the 1915 season, while at the same time these same sites said that the Giants used it for home games from 1931-1932. It’s not in my nature to get duped on something like this, but needless to say I got burned this time around. I guess it’s not the end of the world. I just feel dumb now because I marked this cap up with numbers that are reflective upon the 1931 season. Yes, I am aware that this is my project and I can do with it what I choose; however, I’m a stickler for historical accuracy. For so-called experts in this field to not notice simple differences like how the arms of the “Y” are straight on this cap and wilted for other years should have been a big indicator. If anything I should be dedicating this cap to National Baseball Hall of Famers Frankie Frisch and High Pockets Kelly who were both members of the 1924 National League championship squad that lost the World Series to the Washington Senators in seven games. But, it’s me after all. I can churn stories out of numbers, photos or even game-used relics from the past. This time around, I have a lot of connecting to do.

Oh, and as far as how I missed seeing it on the field? I was driving from Phoenix, Arizona to Anaheim, California, trying to get to the Los Angeles Angels versus the Baltimore Orioles game while the Giants game was taking place.


#5- When I came across the year 1932 and this cap a wave of relief washed over me. Well, that is until I had all ready marked this up and realized how wring that intel was. However, let’s for argument’s sake say this cap was first used in 1932, what does that mean historically? Well, if you go back to my post from January 1st on the Philadelphia Athletics right from the start I detailed about how the 1931 team was the first in A’s history to put numbers on the back of their jerseys. Such was the case for the Giants when it came to 1932. Now, I am fully aware that the 1929 New York Yankees were the first team to add numbers to the back of their jerseys all for the sake of where they fell in the batting order, but, as an Athletics fan and instigator it is my duty to point out that the Giants “of course” copied the A’s by numbering their jerseys the following year. So typical of them. Kidding. Anyway, in the case of this particular player his first year with the Giants came in 1926 at the age of 17, which is a close enough two years after when this cap was used. Therefore, I say it’s close enough to count.

Yah, it’s pretty obvious how off I am about this hat after looking at this photo of Mel Ott from 1932. I’ll try to keep from talking about this issue for the rest of the post, but this really stews me. Ott was
born in Gretna, Louisiana and was remarkably short (5’9’’) for the amount of power that he could produce when at the plate. He batted left and threw righty and played all 22 years of his career with the Giants; however, he only wore the #5 for one year, 1932. For the rest of his career he rocked the #4 with the exception of 1937 when he changed to #3, only to go back to #4 in 1938. Ott was a six-time NL home run leader, in 1932, 1934, 1936–38, and 1942. From 1928-1945, he led the New York Giants in home runs. This 18-season consecutive dominance is a record; no other player has ever led his team in more consecutive years in a single Triple Crown category. He was both the youngest player to hit 100 home runs and the first National Leaguer to hit 500 home runs. He passed Rogers Hornsby to become the all-time NL home run leader in 1937 and held that title until Willie Mays passed him in 1966.

Because of his power hitting, he was noted for reaching base via the base on balls. He drew five walks in a game three times. He set the National League record for most walks in a doubleheader with six, on October 5, 1929 and did it again on April 30, 1944. He tied an MLB record by drawing a walk in seven consecutive plate appearances (June 16 through 18, 1943). He also led the NL in walks six times: in 1929, 1931–33, 1937 and 1942. He twice scored six runs in a game, on August 4, 1934 and on April 30, 1944. He is still the youngest major leaguer to ever hit for the cycle, which he accomplished on May 16, 1929 (20-years-old). Ott was the first NL player to post eight consecutive 100-RBI seasons, and only Willie Mays, Sammy Sosa, Chipper Jones, and Albert Pujols have since joined him. He used a batting style that was then considered unorthodox, lifting his forward (right) foot prior to impact. This style helped with his power hitting. More recent players who used a similar style include Harold Baines and Kirby Puckett, as well as the Japanese home run king, Sadaharu Oh.

In 1943, all of his 18 home runs came at home; only two others ever had a greater number of all-homefield home runs. Of Ott's 511 career home runs, 323 of them, or 63 percent, came at home. (Home Run Handbook, John Tattersall, 1975). Because of this, his home run record historically has been downplayed, suggesting that a 257-foot (78 m) foul line at the Polo Grounds resulted in higher numbers at home. As a balance, the Polo Grounds had the deepest power alleys in baseball. Also, he hit more career home runs in foreign stadiums than any other National League hitter at the time of his retirement. In some of his better seasons, he hit more homers on the road than in the Polo Grounds.
Though there may be reason to believe that he was a better hitter than his record holds due to differences in National League and American League ball specifications ("All too forgOtten" Steve Treder, October 2, 2007). Those differences are considered the most outstanding in the history of the game and made it considerably harder for National League hitters to achieve home runs. During the prime of Ott's career, eleven seasons from 1931 through 1941, American League batters averaged 21% more home runs--peaking at 41% more home runs--than their National League counterparts. Babe Ruth and Jimmie Foxx, contemporaries, and both American League players, were the only batters to surpass Ott's record during this time.

Ott was named to 12 All-Star teams from 1934-1945 and is one of only six players in National League history to play for the same team throughout his career for 20 or more years. The others are Cap Anson, Stan Musial, Willie Stargell, Tony Gwynn, and Craig Biggio. Ott went to four World Series, but only won one in 1933. He was a player-manager of the Giants for six years from 1942-1947 and only a manager in 1948. The Giants best finish during that time was in third place in 1942. It was in reference to Ott's supposedly easy-going managing style that then-Brooklyn Dodgers manager Leo Durocher made the oft-quoted and somewhat out-of-context comment, "Nice guys finish last!" Ott was the first manager to be ejected from both games of a doubleheader, when the Giants lost both games to the Pittsburgh Pirates on June 9, 1946. After his playing career was over, Ott broadcast baseball on the Mutual radio network in 1955. From 1956 to 1958, Ott teamed with Van Patrick to broadcast the games of the Detroit Tigers on radio and television. He was selected to the Hall of Fame in 1951 with 87% of the vote. His number "4" was also retired by the Giants in 1949, and it is posted on the facade of the upper deck in the left field corner of AT&T Park. Besides being a home run hitter Ott finished his career with a .304 average, 2876 hits and 1860 RBI. He finished in the top-20 13 times for the NL MVP, but the closest he ever came to winning one was when he finished a respectable third in 1942. I think it’s fair to say he got screwed quite a few times.


#10- Two years in particular Ott got screwed out of the NL MVP by his teammate Carl Hubbell. Like Ott, Hubbell only wore the #10 for one season (1932) and rocked #11 for the rest of his career. And also, like Ott, Hubbell played his entire 16-year career with the Giants from 1928-1943. What’s crazy is that Hubbell’s career didn’t start until he was 25-years-old. He totally could have been a few years into his career in 1924. AAAARRRRR!!!

Hubbell was born in Carthage, Missouri and raised in Meeker, Oklahoma. He was originally signed by the Tigers and was invited to spring training in 1926. However, pitching coach George McBride and player-manager Ty Cobb weren't impressed with him. Additionally, they were concerned about his reliance on a screwball, a pitch that some believe places an unusual amount of stress on a pitcher's arm. Hubbell was sent to the Toronto Maple Leafs in the International League before the start of the season. He went 7–7 on a championship team. In 1927 he was invited to spring training again with Detroit, but McBride and Cobb still weren't impressed and sent him two steps down the minor-league ladder, to the Decatur Commodores of the Illinois-Indiana-Iowa League. Despite a 14–7 record, the Tigers didn't invite him back for 1928, and he was sent to the Beaumont Exporters of the Texas League. Well, Cobb was kind of a dick, but we all know that. Hubbell was so fed up by this time that he told Beaumont manager Claude Robinson that he would retire and go into the oil business unless he was sold to another organization by the end of the season. Years later, he said that being unloaded by the Tigers was the best thing that ever happened to him.
His break came that June, when Giants scout Dick Kinsella decided to take in a game between Hubbell's Exporters and the Houston Buffs while in Houston for the Democratic National Convention. He hadn't planned on doing any scouting, but he was impressed by Hubbell. Kinsella called Giants manager John McGraw and mentioned that he knew of Hubbell's release by Detroit, prompted in part by Cobb's concerns about the screwball. McGraw replied that Christy Mathewson had a screwball (a fadeaway, as it was called in his time) and it didn't seem to affect his arm. Kinsella followed Hubbell for a month and was still impressed.

Hubbell would go 10–6 in his first major league season and would pitch his entire career for the Giants. With a slow delivery of his screwball, Hubbell recorded five consecutive 20-win seasons for the Giants (1933–37) and helped his team to three NL pennants and the 1933 World Series title. In the 1933 Series, he won two complete game victories; including an 11-inning 2–1 triumph in Game Four (the run was unearned). In six career Series starts, he was 4–2 with 32 strikeouts and a 1.79 ERA. Hubbell finished his career with a 253–154 record, 1678 strikeouts, 724 walks, 36 shutouts and a 2.97 ERA, in 3590 innings pitched.

He won 24 consecutive games between 1936 (16) & 1937 (8), the longest such streak ever recorded in major league history. He was twice named NL MVP (1933, 1936) (first unanimous MVP pick in 1936). He led the league in wins three times in 1933 (23), 1936 (26), and 1937 (22). He led the league in ERA three times in 1933 (1.66), 1934 (2.30), and 1936 (2.31). He led the league in innings pitched in 1933 (308). He led the league in strikeouts in 1937 (159). He led the league in strikeouts per nine innings pitched in 1938 (5.23). He led the league in shutouts in 1933 (10). He led the league in saves in 1934 (eight, retroactively credited). He compiled a streak of 46 scoreless innings and four shutouts in 1933. He pitched a no-hitter against the Pittsburgh Pirates (11–0, May 8, 1929). He pitched an 18-inning shutout against the St. Louis Cardinals (1–0, July 2, 1933). He also traveled through time and had a robot arm attached in the future before he went back to the 1930s. Joe DiMaggio called Hubbell the toughest pitcher he'd ever faced. One of the sentences in this paragraph is false.

Hubbell was released at the end of the 1943 season. He had posted a 4-4 record that year, marking the only time he didn't record double-digit wins. However, Giants owner Horace Stoneham immediately appointed him as director of player development, a post he held for 35 years. During that time, he lived in Haworth, New Jersey; he continued to live there after the Giants left New York. The last ten years of his life were spent as a Giants scout. At the time of his death, he was the last New York Giant still active in some capacity in baseball and still collecting a paycheck from the Giants.

In the 1934 All-Star Game played at the Polo Grounds, Hubbell set a record by striking out five future Hall of Famers in succession: Babe Ruth, Lou Gehrig, Jimmie Foxx, Al Simmons and Joe Cronin. In 1984, the 50th anniversary of this legendary performance, National League pitchers Fernando Valenzuela and Dwight Gooden combined to fan six batters in a row for a new All-Star Game record (future Hall of Famers Dave Winfield, Reggie Jackson, and George Brett by Valenzuela; Lance Parrish, Chet Lemon, and Alvin Davis by Gooden). Hubbell himself was on hand for the 1984 All-Star Game at San Francisco's Candlestick Park to throw out the first pitch, which was a screwball.

Hubbell was a 9-time All-Star, having been honored each year from 1933 to 1938 and then again from 1940 to 1942. He was the first NL player to have his number (11) retired. His number is posted on the facing of the upper deck in the left field corner at AT&T Park. Hubbell died due to injuries suffered in an auto accident in Scottsdale, Arizona in 1988, thirty years to the day after teammate and Hall of Famer Mel Ott died of the same cause in New Orleans. Spooky.


SR- This last little bit is something that I came across by happenstance, but am technically wrong, as is the production company and, once again, the Web site that gave me really bad intel. When I first came across this cap I knew I had seen it before but not on a baseball diamond nor in a reference book on baseball, but in a movie from my youth. Which movie? “Indiana Jones and the Temple of Doom.”

Jonathan Ke Quan, the actor who portrayed Short Round in the film as well as Data in “The Goonies,” wore the cap featured above throughout the film. Now, the timeline of the film is said to be taking place in 1935, which is also confirmed in captions during the opening scene of the film at Club Obi Wan. Yes, that is actually the name of the club. Through a few Web sites and bits of research I found out that the cap that Ke Quan was wearing throughout the film was specially designed as a period piece for the film. This is a bit problematic because the cap I am wearing (1924) was said to be the cap he is wearing. Actually, the cap he is wearing is the Giants road cap from 1921-1922. Ke Quan was 13-years-old when the film was released in 1984, so just to be fair let’s say that he was 12 when it was filmed thus making his character the same age. Even if you subtract his age (12) from the year that the film is supposed to be taking place (1935) he is still born after the last time this cap was used (1922). My point of this is, if this is supposed to be a period piece why would he be wearing a hat from a time before he was born? To press that even further, where would an Asian kid pick up a cap like that? I totally understand being able to find the cap of the year in progress, but not one that’s 13-years-old unless in a thrift/surplus shop. Since we’re also talking about the Great Depression years, all of these signs are leading to someone in the wardrobe department kind of sucking at this job. Just like all of the people, including myself, that gave me bad information on this cap. Hooray!

Friday, August 16, 2013

July 5- Salem-Keizer Volcanoes


It sounds cliché, but there has been one constant in my life that I almost always share with anyone who has made an impact in my life for the better or worse; at some point in time down the road, we will meet again. I assure you, this is one of those positive moments.

Whether you have been actively reading my posts or just getting introduced to them, there is a two-year time period that I still hold as one of the best times of my life. From 1999-2000 I served as the bat boy for the then-advanced-A affiliate of the San Francisco Giants the Bakersfield Blaze. Over the last few months I’ve gone back into my vault of stories and unearthed experiences and encounters that, for the most part, I never really shared with anyone. Most of it had to do with the fact that I never really had a platform or a reason to share these stories, but most of all; I never really thought anyone would care about them. During my second season the Blaze shook things up on the field by bringing in a brand new managerial crew led by former Baltimore Orioles shortstop and World Series champion Len Sakata. For those playing at home, Sakata was the original starting shortstop for the Orioles before Cal Ripken, Jr. stepped in and started his Ironman streak of 2632 consecutive games started; keep this in mind for later in the story. One of the members of Sakata’s crew included a former minor leaguer named Bert Hunter who was serving as the Blaze’s batting coach and outfielders coach.

Now, I’m going to do things a little more unorthodox than usual by jumping around which you’ll soon realize has great purpose.

BH- Bert only served as an assistant coach from April until early June as he was only doing extended coaching work with the Blaze until the short season-A season started in the Northwest League as he had been serving as the batting coach for the Salem-Keizer Volcanoes since 1998. Since the Volcanoes season was getting started, it was time for him to head back north to Oregon. Little did he or anyone else know, but I soon followed him up north in July when I made the move to live with my mother in Vancouver, Washington roughly 165 miles north of where Bert was. From 2000-2002 in lived in Vancouver with my mother. Only six times during that time period did my mom and I drive down to the Salem-Keizer area or southward, at which Volcanoes Stadium rests just off of I-5 around mile marker 160 and a couple hundred yards north of the 45th parallel. For those of you who don’t know, the 45th parallel is the degree of latitude directly between the equator and the North Pole. The reason I bring all of this up is that in all the times we passed by the stadium we never once stopped for a game.

That was a pretty sad move on my part because Bert and I got to be decently close during the two-and-a-half months we worked with one another. After the third game of the 2000 California League season Bert dubbed me with the nickname “Spread Killer.” The story behind that has to do with an unfortunate reality of minor league baseball; it’s really not that glamorous. Before every game the team provided a food spread for the players which consisted of bread, peanut butter and grape or strawberry jelly. That’s it. Unlike the Oakland Athletics in “Moneyball,” sodas from the fountains in the concessions booths were free to the players and staff. But, before every game I always made myself a PB & J sandwich without ever asking any of the coaches or players permission. Because of this, I became the “Spread Killer.” To pay penance for all of the sandwiches I had enjoyed before every game I provided the team with entertainment from my house which consisted of my Nintendo 64 and an electronic dartboard that I happened to have lying around the house. Both of these gestures went very far with the guys, but they still called me “Spread Killer,” except this time they didn’t have a dickish tone about it. After almost every game Bert and I rolled a best of three series of 301 on the dartboard. Of all the guys in the clubhouse, he was the only one who could contest with me.

June 2013

It was a rather boring Saturday at work at Just Sports (@JustSportsPDX) alongside my former co-worker Bradley. I say former because he had put his two weeks notice in and would be moving on to another job shortly after this date. Bradley was about an hour away from clocking out for the day and on the sales floor while I was behind the counter picking up a pile of stocking caps that had been knocked onto the floor by a customer. As I reached for the last one I heard Bradley say, “Hey, how are you doing?” to someone who had just walked in. Within a matter of seconds I recognized his first, but I couldn’t pinpoint why. Rather than be a jerk and ask where we might have known each other, I held back, played it cool and let Bradley do all of the talking. The two gabbed about baseball for a few seconds which gave Bradley allowed Bradley to chime in about the “black and orange” since he’s a Giants fan. The man then mentioned that he was a black and orange fan himself, but his allegiance falls with the Orioles. I had a feeling of déjà vu wash over me as Bradley and I had talked about the Orioles almost days prior, mainly about Ripken, Jr. and September 6, 1995, the day Ripken passed Lou Gehrig on the consecutive games played list. Bradley, being the big Ripken, Jr. fan that he is, brought that moment up. The man then talked about how awesome that night was from his perspective, which he followed up with, “and I was there.” Somehow Bradley didn’t hear that part, but that was all I needed to hear for everything to finally come jarring loose in my brain.

“You played professionally for a few years, didn’t you?” I asked.

“Yes I did. Nine years,” he said.

“You used to coach the Bakersfield Blaze back in 2000, right?” I followed up with.

He looked at me with a slightly puzzled look and then said, “Yaaaaahhh… but I spent most of my coach years with the Salem-Keizer Volcanoes.” At this point I had to ask his name as I had forgotten it. Sure enough, it was Bert. Bert was still a bit confused as to how I knew him and he didn’t know me, so I asked him, “Do you remember a spiky blonde-haired kid who worked as the bat boy back in Bakersfield?” He said, “Yaaaahhh… I kind of do.” I then helped him out a little bit more, “We used to play darts after all of the games and you always called me “Spread Killer.”” As soon as the last syllable escaped my mouth his eyes widened and he let out a boisterous, “Oh my God!!!” and chuckled.

In about 10 minutes, the time it then took for his wife and kids to come into the store, we caught up on 13 years of lost time. Bert managed for six years in the Arizona League, still within the Giants organization from 2002-02. The Rookie League club won four league titles and he was named manager of the year in 2004 after the team went 37-19. After that he went home to Keizer and got on with Willamette University, a private and solid baseball school in Salem where he has been the team’s third base and outfielders coach since 2009. One of his daughters plays basketball at Oregon State University. I told him about graduating from the University of Oregon, the MLB Fan Cave, my baseball tour and how I’m trying to break into baseball as a writer. My only regret from our conversation was that I didn’t get a photo with him before he left, but I still find it funny that very little had changed with him and so much had changed with me, yet we were both still doing our thing in the environment that we both have a kinship for, baseball.

In the 14 years that I’ve lived in the Pacific Northwest I for some reason only made it out to a Volcanoes game once, and that happened by chance in 2005. I had a brief (one week) internship with the local newspaper, The Statesman Journal, working as a stringer for their sports page. On my second night I was sent to Volcanoes Stadium to shadow their Volcanoes beat writer, whose name escapes me, as the home team took on the visiting Tri-Cities Dust Devils. I don’t remember too much from the game other than the fact that the Volcanoes won. After the game we headed to the clubhouse for post-game interviews with a few of the key players, both of whom I decided to write about and mark my cap with. What I didn’t know at the time, like Bert above, we’d have quite the reunion a few years down the road. But first…

In 1996, Bellingham Giants co-owners Jerry Walker and William Tucker announced that they were moving the NWL franchise to Keizer, Oregon, a city of 22,000 located immediately north of Salem. The Bellingham club, short-season Class A affiliate of the Giants, had the NWL's lowest attendance figures during each of its two seasons. Keizer had striven to assert itself as an independent, thriving city for 12 years since the former Salem suburb had become an incorporated municipality. City officials, led by Mayor Dennis Koho, and civic leaders worked toward getting a new baseball stadium located and built in Keizer. The area had lacked a suitable facility for pro baseball since the early 1960s, when the Salem Dodgers vacated historic Waters Field (which burned down in 1966). Volcanoes Stadium was built in less than a year, on a tract of land adjacent to I-5 just northwest of the Keizer interchange. The 4,252-seat facility was ready for the debut of the Salem-Keizer Volcanoes in 1997. Two years later, the American Institute of Architects honored the Volcanoes with a design award for the stadium. This cap, according to Chris Creamer’s Sportslogos.net has been around since their inaugural season.

Well, I suppose there is a little bit of truth to that. This particular card was from the 1998 season and features the “V” with the baseball blowing its dome out like a smoke stack; however, this particular panel shading on the cap was first introduced for the 2003 season. Prior to that, all of the caps featuring this logo were a very light grey. Even funnier, when trying to track down photo of players wearing this cap, I this was the first photo that came up.

What’s unusual about this photo is that Tim Lincecum only pitched in two games for a total of four innings for the Volcanoes. In my opinion, I think someone with a bit more history with the team should have been higher on the search criteria. You know, someone like these two knuckleheads below. And one thing I need to point out, I couldn't find photos of either of these guys wearing this hat.

#20- Sergio Romo was born in Brawley, California. He graduated from Brawley Union High School in 2001, having played shortstop and third base on the baseball team. With no scholarship offers from four-year colleges, Romo nearly signed enlistment papers to follow his father in the U.S. Navy, but opted to play baseball at junior college instead. Romo first went to Orange Coast College before transferring to Arizona Western College. Romo was named to the All-Region I second team of the Arizona Community College Athletic Conference in 2002 and 2003. In 159 innings, Romo earned a 16-4 overall record with a 2.79 earned run average (ERA).

For his junior and senior years, Romo played NCAA Division II baseball at two colleges: the University of North Alabama (2004) and Colorado Mesa University (formerly Mesa State College) (2005). He was named First-Team All-Gulf South Conference in 2004 while playing for North Alabama and was 10-3 with a 3.69 ERA in 97.1 innings. In his senior year with Mesa State (2005), he was the Rocky Mountain Athletic Conference Pitcher of the Year. That same year Romo was drafted by the Giants in 28th round of the Major League Baseball amateur draft.

Romo only played one season for the Volcanoes in… you guessed it, 2005. In fact, it was the first of two years as a professional that he pitched as a starter. That year he took to the hill for 15 games, 14 of which were starts. He went 7-1 with a 2.75 ERA and 65 strikeouts in 68.2 innings pitched. Impressive.

#38- Playing third base for the Volcanoes that season was an 18-year-old kid from Puerto Cabello, Carabobo, Venezuela who was signed as an undrafted free agent in 2002 and goes by the nickname “Kung Fu Panda.” Yup! Pablo Sandoval lit up the NWL that season with his bat, hitting .330 with three home runs, 15 doubles and 50 RBI.

On the night I was in house, July 4, 2005, Sandoval went 2-5 with one of his two triples on the season and two RBI. Romo was equally a s brilliant throwing five solid innings, allowing only two hits, one walk, one earned run and struck out five. At the time Sandoval didn’t know much English so Romo did a bit of the translation work for him during the interview. From what I can recall they were both incredibly pleasant guys, both of whom had the potential to break out further down in their careers. How right that statement turned out to be.

Now, as I mentioned above, we did meet years later, last year to be exact in the Fan Cave.


As sharp as my memory is I had completely forgotten about that night in Keizer just as much as they probably did as well. The day in the Fan Cave was rather interesting for more than just the video and premise that they were brought in for. If you haven’t seen it, check it out. The concept was pretty clever; Sandoval and Romo had a little booth in Washington Square Park and the two would give out custom handshakes to people who dropped a quarter in their jar for charity. Before we left Sandoval and Romo kept calling me B-Weezy on account of my beard and how I looked like closer Brian Wilson, but they were also giving me smack for wearing an Oakland Athletics shirt that day. Not being one to be a “Buzz Killngton,” I told them to wait a second while I went to my cubby box to throw on my sweatshirt. I dropped my hat in, tied my hair back, put on my favorite black hooded sweatshirt, threw up the hood and rocked some shades before turning around to greet them again. Both of them lost their minds and rallied for me to be a part of the video because I looked the part so much.

As much as that last little bit sounds like BS, here’s the proof. 


This sketch was put together two days after Wilson had gotten his second Tommy John surgery and I did my best to play it off the whole time they were there as if I was actually Wilson. My impression, despite saying little-to-nothing, was so successful that I got requests for pictures and autographs the entire time we were out in the park. To everyone who asked I repeatedly told them that I WAS NOT Wilson; however, all of them thought that I was just saying that as a rouse. It wasn’t until I took off the sunglasses, removed the hood and moved my arms around that people finally believed me. Romo and Sandoval had a good laugh about it, but all of the scenes with me were edited out, more than likely because I made Ashley Chavez, the Giants fan, seem irrelevant. This happened a lot, and not because of anything I purposely did, but because everyone thought I looked like Wilson so often, they all assumed that I was the Giants fan of the group. In fact, there was another sketch that was supposed to be filmed the next morning with only me. The concept was that Giants pitcher Barry Zito and I were going to walk around Times Square for an hour to see who would get more photo and autograph requests. An hour before I had to be at the Fan Cave the next morning Zito backed out. Funny.

Wednesday, July 3, 2013

June 16- San Francisco Giants


I start this entry off with an apology to all of you who have been following me since day one. Over the last five-and-a-half months I’ve been researching, writing and assembling these New Era Cap articles at a borderline psychotic pace; in some cases I would write between seven and 10 pages regularly. As much as I enjoy sharing these amazing stories of Major League Baseball’s, as well as my past, present and future, it finally took its toll after my entry for June 15th. With work, trying to establish a career, a lot of traveling and trying to spend time with the people I care about I finally burned out. Even though in my heart I wanted to continue to write these stories my brain wouldn’t let me. I needed a short break to re-focus and get myself well. I rarely ever put myself before my friends and family, but in this case it was a necessity. I’m terribly sorry and I hope I can get caught up and finish out the year the way I had originally intended.

This hat has been a long time coming as it is one of the more important windows to the man who I have become today. It’s kind of a long story, and some of you may end up crying at some point throughout. All of what you’re about to read is true and as vivid in my mind as the days in which they occurred.

I’ll never forget when my parents got divorced. I was five-years-old and a few days away from starting kindergarten at Sing Lum Elementary School in Bakersfield, California. My family and I had just moved into our new house at 2621 Mountain Oak Road about a week-and-a-half prior from Stockton, as my father had been promoted and transferred to his new office with PG&E. At that young of an age the “why” aspect of why they split up never made much sense, it was something that I slowly pieced together as I grew older, completely altering my interactions with the couple who had married, gave birth to me and raised me with the belief that what they were doing was somehow beneficial to everyone’s lives. 25 years later I can say that I understand it, but I will never condone the loss of love in a relationship after they’ve given each other their vows. Love is eternal, and not something I take with a grain of salt.

I was born on February 5, 1983 to Dave and Stephanie Christensen at Valley Memorial Hospital in Livermore, California… or in San Leandro, California; it really depends on who’s telling the story. Even in my adult years my parents can’t seem to agree upon that. I was first introduced to baseball at the age of two in the street of our grandparent’s (dad’s side) house in San Leandro; however, my first conscious memory of the game wouldn’t come until Game 6 of the 1986 World Series between the New York Mets and the Boston Red Sox, arguably one of the greatest games in baseball history, and a hell of a first recollection. The first game I can recall attending took place on May 23, 1987 at Oakland-Alameda County Coliseum as the Oakland Athletics lost to the Baltimore Orioles 4-5 despite the best efforts of Mark McGwire and his 14th home run of the season off of Mike Boddicker. From that moment I was hooked on the Athletics. My oldest brother Matt has always been and Athletics fan while the middle brother Adam sided with my father and become a San Francisco Giants fan. My mom, on the other hand, has been rolling hard with the Boston Red Sox; none of us really know or understand why. When I got old enough (three) to throw and swing a bat without injuring anyone my parents and brothers taught me the game. Every day in which the sun was shining my brothers and I met up with the kids in the neighborhood on our front lawn for as many games as we could get in before it was time for dinner. At the time we didn’t play with regulation equipment for the sake of my safety, rather we downgraded to whiffle products to keep it safer, and to keep from any windows from getting broken. My brothers did their best to be patient with me. Some times I would miss a throw or tag and sometimes I would strikeout worse than Mark Reynolds, but the one thing we could all count on was my parents ready to help me out, make sure my bat was straight, make sure I was throwing the ball properly and making sure I understood the fundamentals. Through thick and thin baseball has been the strange bond that has kept our family together in some weird celestial way. No one cares for the game as much as I do, but everyone shows a keen interest whenever their team is playing or mentioned within ear shot. Despite all of the horrible things that have gone down over the years, it’s nice to know that we have something to smile about. It’s also nice to know that at some point during my parents’ marriage I can look back and know that they worked together on something.

My father did his best to be a good dad, but ultimately got wrapped up in work, a new marriage and trying to start a new family with my stepmother. Through his second marriage I gained a stepbrother and eventually a little sister. When she came along things started to turn sour between the two of us, but it would take years for things to really boil over due to no fault of my sister.

From when I was eight until I was 13-years-old my father was my baseball coach. Unlike most dads who coach their son he never treated me as such. On the field I was just another player, something I respected of him as it taught me the value of working hard and earning my spot on the team, as opposed to having it just handed to me. I worked my ass of every day to be the best at every position; with the exception of catcher, I hated it. From when I was 10 until I was 13 I made All-Stars along with my stepbrother and a family friend named Tyler. This honor was once again not chosen by my father. He elected to take a much more diplomatic route about things and had all of the kids on the team vote for who deserved to go. In two of the four years I made it I won Most Valuable Player, batting 1.000 in all but one game thanks in part to a poorly-laid drag bunt when I was 12 that I still almost beat out.

After the games we went back to family life. From when my parents divorced until I was in fifth grade (10/11-years-old) we lived with our mom and visited out dad every other weekend, which breaks down to roughly 5-6 days a month. The only time I got extended hours was when I had to go to baseball, or any other sports practice for that matter. He always did his best to be there and be supportive; however, amongst four and then five kids with the arrival of my sister, it became difficult for him. It was hard. I don’t know how many of you have ever been put in the situation of only being allowed access to one parent; I can assure you that it’s a horrible feeling. It all becomes worse when you’re eight-years-old and some lawyer asks you which parent you want to live with. That’s a horrible f---ing question to ask a child. I’ll never forgive the man who asked me that question, even though it was his job.  I did my best to channel my aggression and unleash it whenever I played sports, but sometimes all the wrongness of witnessing my parents yell at one another at the end of the weekend of a weekend visit, the loneliness of growing up without my father in my life everyday and just being a kid all boiled over as I caused a lot of mischief as well.

Every now-and-then my dad would talk us to the Bay Area to see our grandparents (his parents). It was a great time to get away from the rigors of dealing with the nonsense in Bakersfield and just be kids. Trips like this almost always came with a trip to the Coliseum for an Oakland Athletics game or to Candlestick for a Giants game. One game in particular I’ll never forget because my dad saved me from getting hit by a BART train. It was August 20, 1993, the Florida Marlins were visiting and I happened to be wearing a Marlins snapback cap that my mom had bought me from an AM/PM. As we sat waiting for our train, a gust of wind kicked up and blew mat hat off and away from me. My father sense what could have happened next and immediately grabbed me as I was heading to the yellow warning strip at the edge. Luckily, the hat stayed on the platform and I didn’t have my head smooshed by a train. Even more fitting is that my hat was blown off of my head for a second time at the top of The Stick and I saved it last-minute as it was about to fall in between the guard rail. To prevent anymore issues my dad ended up buying me a Marlins batting helmet to wear over the top. Oh, and incase you were wondering, the Marlins won the game 5-4. Giants’ first baseman Will Clark almost tied the game with a pinch hit home run in the bottom of the ninth, but it fell just a little bit short.

It was a great time and a great day that my brothers and I got to send with our father, and it was only the second Giants game I had ever attended at The Stick in my life; the first being a game in 1990 during Gary Carter’s one, and only year in the Bay. However, the crazy thing that none of us knew is that roughly two weeks after that game we would be forced to move to out Father’s house.

I was a week into fifth grade when it happened. My oldest brother Matt had all ready moved out of the house, but now my brother Adam and I had to go too as my mother couldn’t afford to take care of us anymore. Life became really weird after that. All of the angst I had built up; even at such a young age, against my father was starting to spill out as I became way more rebellious. He and my stepmother still took us to games at The Stick, but it didn’t have the same feel to it. Actually, the last game we had been to was on August 7, 1995 as the Giants were taking on the Los Angeles Dodgers. The Dodgers won in 12 innings by the score of 3-1. In that game Barry Bonds got walked four times and Deion Sanders went 2-6 with a double for the Giants. This was also the first time I really picked up on the Giants/Dodgers rivalry which then confused me to no end as my stepmother is a Dodgers fan.

Years continued on, as did my rebellious side, as did the tension between my father and me. I won’t go into too much detail more about my older years of playing baseball with him as the coach; I touched upon most of that yesterday. What I can tell you is that I never had the courage to stand up to him. Yes, we yelled a lot at one another, but nothing was ever really resolved between us. Instead, I took my built-up aggression out on everyone I knew: teachers, coaches, friends, etc. The worst of it came out against the varsity basketball coach at Centennial High School during my junior year. For some reason the coach didn’t like me, granted my freshman year I was a short, chubby kid who could jump, but barely run. The following year I grew eight inches and lost a lot of weight in the process. I also ran four-to-five miles a day and blew everyone else out of the water trying out for the basketball team during conditioning drills. Still, no dice on making the team. By my junior year I got tired of it. I worked my ass off longer and harder than anyone else there and yet I still got picked on be all the coaches the most. Finally, I snapped. I told all three of the coaches, individually, to “fuck off.” More importantly, I gave each one a specific reason why they could. The head coach gave it right back to me. Somehow that whole thing stayed internal. When I eventually got cut from the team (a week later) my father laughed and asked why I tried out again in the first place. My stepbrother had made varsity in football and baseball and my father had focused all of his attention toward him. There was a bit of resentment between my father and me after I had quit playing baseball every summer so I could visit my mother, because, you know, I’m a real dick for wanting to spend time with my mom.

One of the biggest reasons I had tried to make the basketball team and cast baseball aside was because basketball was the one sport that my father and I always played together the most. He never made the team in high school, but got much better in the years that followed his schooling. I wanted to make the team for him. I failed. I probably could have made the baseball team that season too had it not been for the accident that occurred over the summer before my junior year. Yet another moment in the rocky relationship that was between my father and myself as he never took me to the hospital after I told him I had been struck in the face with a ball. It was one of those, “Well I guess you shouldn’t have been playing” speeches that I got in return.

Despite the awesome bat boy gig I had going for myself into my second season in 2000, I decided to hang it up a few weeks into June and move to Vancouver, Washington with my mother. Well, correction; I was only supposed to go up there to visit for a few months and then go back to Bakersfield to finish up school. Needless to say, things didn’t go as scheduled. Around the middle of August I had convinced myself that it would be more beneficial for me to stay in Vancouver for my senior year. I had met with the varsity basketball coach, worked out with a few of the players and had a legitimate shot of making the team, a state-ranked team at that. The school paperwork was about to be filed all I had to do was call my father and let him know of my decision. It took a few minutes of tip-toeing around it, but I finally manned up and told him what I was going to do. For those who know me really well know that I don’t forget anything; names, dates, conversations, it doesn’t matter. This conversation is one of three we’ve had in our lives that I will never forget. After I told him that I was staying he went off on me. While every word that came out of his mouth was extremely hurtful, the thing he said that still haunts me is, “You’re a failure, and you’ll always be one.”

I responded with nothing. We spoke once, maybe twice in the months that followed, but I didn’t care. Nor did I care about seeing him when I went back to visit for Spring Break and when he came to my high school graduation. For years we chatted back and forth but everything felt hollow, almost forced. After I graduated from high school I completed my two-year degree at Clark College in Vancouver. I worked for a number of years before finally enrolling and getting accepted into the University of Oregon.

Things were just weird for a number of years. I found myself in two relationships, one of which involved an engagement, but we broke it off when we both realized we didn’t love each other, not to mention the fact that we had broken up three times prior. After the first, it really should have been an indicator. As for the second relationship, that should have come to an end much earlier than it did.

In May of 2009 my stepbrother was getting married to a woman he had fallen in love with in college. I had met her once prior to the wedding and she seemed like a great girl. Due to the fact that everyone else lives in California and I live in Oregon, it became a bit problematic in regard to scheduling. However, they had set the wedding date for Memorial Day weekend and my girlfriend at the time and I set up an awesome trip which would have included the wedding, A’s games and visiting her family who lived in the Bay. Long-story-short, things went bad, fast.

You know how some people say that their significant other is “crazy?” Well, I hate to use that label, but in my case “mentally ill” is a better suit. I knew a bit about my girlfriend’s past, but almost all of it came out within 36 hours. She had spent time in a mental institution while living in Germany, something I didn’t know at the time. She also never took her meds nor saw her counselors like she was supposed to. As we drove from our hotel in San Leandro to Livermore, everything was fine. As soon as we got to Altamont on our way to Mariposa, she lost it. She began yelling at me, hitting me, slapping me and whatever else she could to convince me to turn around and take her back to the hotel. Granted, we were about 30 minutes away from the wedding by the time I finally pulled the car over. I handed her the keys, got out of the car and started walking. I had had enough. We had been together for a year and I was done. I found the sharpest thing I could and started slashing at my wrists. Two times in my life prior to that moment had I completely broken down and felt that suicide was the only way out, the previous of which came after when my father ha told me. Lucky for me, I didn’t cut deep enough and when the blood started to trickle out I realized that what I was doing was incredibly stupid; however, when put in an environment with someone who isn’t mentally stable, you tend to do irrational things. As I walked back to the car I saw that she had broken a CD and cut her legs up pretty bad. I called my dad and stepmom and let them know I would be coming and told them everything that happened later that night even after they tried to convince my brother Adam to come pick me up. My father wished me well, hoped that I get better and told me that he really missed me. That was the first time I had even heard him say that.

My girlfriend at the time and I both sought counselors after we returned to Eugene. Luckily I services through the school. I stayed the course for the entire 12 weeks at which my counselor told me to break up with her as she was an “extreme” danger to me. At this time I’d like to point out that my counselor was a woman. Moving on, I still stayed with her. Hell, I even helped her move to Anchorage, Alaska when she got a teaching gig. And by move, I mean we drove the entire 4000 miles and I flew back. Not having anyone immediately there for her, she of course broke up with me two weeks later and shacked up with some other dude. My life then began spiraling downhill. I lost my job at the time, I was beyond depressed and I received calls and texts from her letting me know how much better her life was without me. I was done. I threw up a message on Facebook, letting everyone know that I was going to hang myself. I didn’t do it to be creepy, or for a cry for help, mostly just to let someone know as I lived alone in a studio apartment. As I got on the chair with the rope around my neck, my mother called me to let me know she was coming down to see me.

A lot of tears and yelling came out of her when she arrived. The next morning I got back into counseling, this time with a psychologist and a psychiatrist. If you haven’t been able tot ell from reading this, I’m a pretty open-minded person. I also know that the key to improving your mental health is to not hold anything back. I NEVER used to hold that opinion. It took time and a lot of sessions for me to unleash everything that I had been holding in throughout my entire life, starting with my parents’ divorce. When we got to the point about my father calling me a failure I completely broke down. I hated the feeling of being completely vulnerable, but I brought it upon myself, so to speak, for being so guarded. This moment, if anything, should help explain why I say what I do and always act out the things that I say. It took a bit of time, work and medication, but I changed my outlook on life and who I allow to get close to me. More important, I was tired of being a scarred kid around my father.

At the end of December I got the green light from my counselors to go to California to watch my Oregon Ducks take on THE Ohio State University in the Rose Bowl. I made a stop in Bakersfield to stay with my family at which my dad and I had a lengthy talk about what had transpired since my stepbrother’s wedding, but we only focused on that, not the past. That night before I went to bed I was greeted by a phone call from my ex whose life continued to spin out of control in Alaska and asked me for my emotional support. I told her she needed help and that I never wanted to talk to or hear from her again. She then started sobbing, asking, “I thought you said you’d care for me for the rest of your life?” A trap statement which should have had an asterisk on it that said, “Unless you cheat on me and/or break my heart;” which obviously happened. I then continued to tell her that “I would never be there for her again,” which is pretty ballsy to do when you really break it down. She then told me, “you’re a fucking loser, you’ll always be a failure and I never really loved you.” *Click* That night I got some of the best sleep of my life.

The next year-and-a-half was nothing but wonderful. The relationship between my father and me improved quite a bit, the new job I had gotten after the Ducks lost in the Rose Bowl was great and I was flying through school. I also learned that being comfortable just by myself was what had been missing my entire life. I took things much more slowly, met some really great people, went to Europe and did things for me for a change. In June of 2011 I hit the stage at Hayward Field and graduated with my first two degree from Oregon; one in News/Editorial Journalism and the other in English. My mother, stepfather, father, stepmother and grandmother were there to congratulate me. After we had lunch and I gave my father and stepmother a tour of my apartment I headed to work at Max’s Tavern, because, you know, money. Before my shift was over my father stopped by to say goodbye as he and my stepmother were heading back to Bakersfield the next day. He told me he was proud of me. Not just for being the first of the kids spawned by him to graduate college, but because of the road I traveled down and got myself out of in order to achieve what I set forth for. I gave him a hug, told him I loved him and he returned the same.

In the week-and-a-half to follow my friend, and soon-to-be-roommate Jared Clark and I made a trip down to California to catch a few Athletics games, go visit my friend Laurin Mitchell and spend some time in Bakersfield with my family. One of the activities we had planned took place on Father’s Day as Jared, my father and I all went to the Athletics game as they took on the Giants in the final game of a three-game series. This was the first game we had attended together since 1998, and the only game in which both of our teams were playing. We sat near the left field foul pole as those were the only tickets I could score. The game had been sold out for some time and I was smart enough to buy the tickets back in May. This was also the first time my father and I had been to the Coliseum together since the early 1990s, so we made sure to talk about how much we hated not being able to see the Oakland Hills like in the old days. Somewhere around the fourth inning my dad started regaling us with stories of his youth; how he used to sit in the right field bleachers back in the early 1970s and how he was present for a few games during all three World Series championships from that era, something I had never heard him mention before. Everything I’ve really ever known and loved about baseball game from him, and despite all the horrible things that had happened between us for more than two decades, none of it mattered. I was just happy to with my dad.

The Athletics won the game and swept the series behind Trevor Cahill’s 3-0 performance. We hooped the BART back to Dublin where we had parked and went and grabbed dinner. Afterward we hugged and parted ways as Jared and I had to get back to Oregon. I wouldn’t see him again until late December of that year as Jared and I, once again, went down to watch the Ducks play in the Rose Bowl. It was also during this time that I had told my dad that I was about to apply for the MLB Fan Cave, a job he said that would be perfect for me. How right he was.

The day after I got kicked out of the Fan Cave I had decided to leave my phone at the apartment as I took a bit of a personal sojourn around New York City. When I got back I noticed there was a message on my phone from my father. He had been following my journey since the application and audition process, and unfortunately, like so many people, he found out I was going home through the announcement on the Fan Cave Web site. The message he left was short, and became the second conversation I’ll never forget. He apologized for what had happened, but was proud that I chased down me dreams and worked my butt of to get there. I then had a good cry and passed out for a bit.

We wouldn’t see each other again until the beginning of July, as I was just starting the West Coast part of my MLB stadium tour. Our time together was spent after I completed Seattle, Los Angeles, Anaheim and Phoenix. The Athletics had invited me out to throw out first pitch on July 17th so I decided to hang out in Bakersfield for a few days before heading out. Coincidentally, PG&E was holding and employee party that day in the BBQ Terrace in right field, and he was all ready going to be there. Two days before I left for the Bay he and I drove out to Arvin for a round of golf, something we hadn’t done together in well over a decade. (My father was sitting to the left of the O.co sign when this photo was taken.)


The entire conversation (the third conversation) to the golf course consisted of a religious theme. My father and I hadn’t talked about God or anything of the matter since I was a teenager, but I gave him my attention. He asked me I still believed and of I had accepted Jesus into my heart. My conversations with others don’t usually get that deep, but I answered him truthfully. I told him yes, and explained to him that I had never lost my faith, despite all the craziness that has come in and out of my life because I know deep down God is watching over me. I then went on to tell him that I read the Bible at some regularity. Basically, all of my answers came as a bit of surprise to him, but I tried not to make a big deal out of it. As we got closer to the course he then asked if there’s anything he had done to show that he had been a bad father and how he could improve upon it. Once again, another interesting question. I thought about it for a minute and then reached down and brought up the phone conversation we had when I was 17-years-old when I made the decision to move in with my mother. Never in my life had I heard my father truly apologize for anything, let alone seen him cry. Not when he and my mother got divorced. Not when he parents died, not even when his and my stepmother’s first child died shortly after she was born. For a few seconds I felt bad for bringing it up, but that feeling went away. I had been holding it in for 12 years, and I felt that a great weight had been lifted once I found the courage to talk about it. It was a horrible thing to happen at a really bad time in our lives, but we both handled it well and are closer for it.

I love my father very much. I just wish it hadn’t taken so long to finally tell him.

I realize that most of you may not see why I wrote this or what any of this has to do with a hat, but I assure you it has everything to do with it. The Giants have been using this as their game cap since the start of the 1994 season. As I mentioned above, the Giants are my father’s favorite team, and the only two Giants’ home game we ever attended took place a year before and a year after his hat was introduced. When I was a bat boy for the Bakersfield Blaze in 1999 and 2000 the Giants were the Major League affiliate, and this cap was actually the first MLB New Era Cap I ever owned as it was part of my uniform. The hat in the photo below is not the original, that one is in storage as it is way too small, but this one carries a lot more meaning behind it. The Giants still used this cap today, the biggest indication about it is the typeface of the “SF” which is currently under its third incarnation since the team moved to San Francisco for the start of the 1958 season, the year my father was born. When picking marks for this cap I rolled with a few natural selections, guys who had big influences on me despite my loyalty to the Athletics organization.

#6- Robby Thompson was the second overall pick in the 1983 amateur draft by the Giants out of the University of Florida. From 1983-1985 he posted mediocre numbers with the single-A Fresno Giants and the AA Shreveport Captains. However, in spite of having a depleted infield, Thompson was called up to the Majors at the start of the 1986 season and made hi debut on April 8th. Thompson blew the critics out of the water, hitting .271 with 149 total hits, seven home runs and 47 RBI. He finished in second place for the National League Rookie of the Year award behind St. Louis Cardinals pitcher Todd Worrell, but ahead of the likes of guys named Kevin Mitchell, Will Clark, Barry Larkin, John Kruk and Barry Bonds. Crazy!

Thompson continued to produce as a solid base-hitter. In 1988 he earned his first trip to the All-Star Game, but had to miss out due to a pinched-nerve in his leg. In 1989 Thompson's batting average dropped to .241. However, he led the National League with 11 triples and scored a career-high 91 runs while hitting ahead of Clark and Mitchell in the batting order. The Giants once again won the Western Division crown and faced the Chicago Cubs in the 1989 National League Championship Series. Thompson hit two home runs in the series including a game-winning two-run home run in Game 3 as the Giants went on to win the series in five games. Thompson was held to only one hit in the 1989 World Series against the Athletics as the Giants were swept in four straight games.

On April 22, 1991 Thompson hit for the cycle. His best year statistically was in 1993 when he was hitting for a .325 average at mid-season to earn his second All-Star selection; however, a leg injury would once again force him to miss the game. The Giants had a nine-game lead on August 11 but faltered in September and were caught by the Atlanta Braves, though by no fault of Thompson, who increased his offensive output late in the season including a period in August where he hit home runs in five consecutive games. With 10 games left in the season on September 24, Thompson suffered a broken cheek bone when he was hit by a pitch thrown by Trevor Hoffman of the San Diego Padres. He missed 8 games due to the injury, but with the Giants and Braves tied for first place Thompson returned to play the final game of the season. Despite his determination, playing with a bloodshot eye and wearing a clear plastic mask in the field, the Giants lost the pennant on the last day of the season.

Thompson ended the season with career highs in batting average (.312), doubles (30), home runs (19) and runs batted in (65). Although Thompson was one of the best fielding second basemen in the National League, he was often overlooked in post-season awards because his playing career coincided with that of Baseball Hall of Fame second baseman Ryne Sandberg. By 1993, Sandberg was past his prime and Thompson finally received recognition when he won the Gold Glove Award for fielding excellence and the Silver Slugger Award.

During spring training in 1994, Thompson received a scare when he was hit on the left ear flap of his batting helmet by pitcher Mike Harkey of the Colorado Rockies. Thompson later stated the two beanings by Hoffman and Harkey were on his mind when he batted during games. In May, he went onto the DL and missed almost two months of the season. He returned in late June, but played in only seven games before undergoing surgery on his right shoulder and missed the rest of the season. Thompson's injuries continued to hamper his playing time in 1995 and in September he had to undergo surgery again, this time on his left shoulder. He returned to play in 1996 but injuries continued to take their toll as he appeared in only 63 games. Thompson played his last major league game on September 22, 1996 at the age of 34.

Thompson and I met in May of 2000 when he was a coach for the Giants. He had come down to Bakersfield to work with a few of the guys and I stood by every now-and-then to pick up some advice as well. After two days of this Thompson caught on. Rather than telling me to go away, he talked to me near the on-deck circle during a game and asked if I was playing ball for my high school. I then told him the story that I wrote about in yesterday’s post about taking a fastball to the nose the year before and how I was still scarred mentally. It was at this moment that he smiled and told me the story of Hoffman breaking his cheekbone. I knew a lot about Thompson growing up, but not that. He then told me, “Well, if you want to work on something tomorrow, let me know.” And walked back to the dugout. I was petrified with excitement.

The next day I arrived to Sam Lynn Ball Park two hours before I was supposed to, which also meant I ditched my last two periods. He happened to be there and was talking things over with Bobby Bonds (yes, Barry’s dad) when I rolled out of the tunnel and onto the field to stretch. Thompson spent an hour with me playing catch, working on defensive drills, learning correct positioning and he and Bonds took turns working on my swing… which, as they said, “really doesn’t need improvement.” But despite their generosity of time and knowledge, I just couldn’t get back in the box in a live-game scenario for years. As great as that day was, and as grateful as I was to the two of them, I wish I could have done more.

#9- I’m not going to spend too much time on this guy as I all ready wrote about him on March 12th. With the exception of 1990, 1991 and his 1999 season with the Arizona Diamondbacks, Matt Williams was a best at the plate for the Giants, not to mention a solid glove. He won four Gold Glove awards throughout his career, three of which came with the Giants, but all of them at third base. He hit .264 with 247 home runs and 732 RBI from 1987-1996, his tenure in San Francisco. His most notable year came in 1994 when he finished in second place for the NL MVP award behind Jeff Bagwell despite Williams’ league-leading 43 home runs. Actually, not going to lie, Bagwell totally deserved it.

#47- The Athletics drafted Rod Beck as a starting pitcher in the 13th round (327th pick) of the 1986 Major League Baseball Draft out of Grant High School in Van Nuys, California. Prior to the 1988 season, he was traded to the Giants organization. In 1989, while with the San Jose Giants of the California League, he posted a record of 11–2 between opening day and June 14, when he was promoted to the Captains.

Beck made his Major League debut on May 6, 1991, against the Montreal Expos. His performance was forgettable (2.0 IP, 3 H, 2 ER), but his season numbers were more impressive. He had a 3.78 ERA, pitched 52 13 innings in 31 games, and struck out 38 while walking 13. In 1992, Beck took over as the regular closer from Dave Righetti and posted a record of 3–3 with 17 saves and a 1.76 ERA. He pitched 92 innings over 65 games and struck out 87 while walking only 15. In 1993 he recorded 48 saves, including 24 consecutive. At the time, both marks were Giants franchise records.

On September 17 and 18, 1997, the Dodgers came to San Francisco to play a two-game series at The Stick. The Dodgers were leading the NL West with a record of 84–67. The Giants were in 2nd place with a record of 82–69; 2 games behind. The Giants won the first game 2–1 behind lefty Kirk Rueter. In that contest, Barry Bonds hit a two-run homer in the first inning for the Giants, while Raúl Mondesí hit a solo shot in the fifth for the Dodgers. Beck did not pitch in the game.

On September 18, he came into the game in the top of the 10th with the score tied 5–5. As the season had progressed, Beck had lost his closer's job to Roberto Hernández. In fact, Beck had blown a save three days earlier in Atlanta while trying to close that game. He had given up 4 earned runs in just 23 of an inning. Beck got into trouble immediately by giving up consecutive singles to Mike Piazza, Eric Karros, and Mondesí. With the bases loaded, nobody out and the crowd booing loudly, manager Dusty Baker came out to talk to Beck, who was obviously struggling. Baker told Beck, "You're the guy." Baker left Beck in, and Beck proceeded to strike out Todd Zeile looking at an inside-corner fastball. When he got pinch hitter Eddie Murray to bounce a splitter into an inning-ending double play, the crowd of 52,188 went crazy. Two innings later, Giants reserve catcher Brian Johnson led off with a home run to left field, giving Beck a 6–5 win. The Giants, now tied with the Dodgers for the division lead, would go on to win the Western Division crown.